WEEE!!! More and more poeple call me Enon!

Tito Elmer, tita Yumi, AMH friends... and couting. I find it comforting! ;)

Hmmm...

Eversince, I don't like people criticizing or commenting (well at least to me) about how I do things, what I rant, what I think, what I want, and what I say. It's like, they're hindering me for being me for doing/saying such things.

Like, I used and I am currently active in this particular social site. A college friend will comment "updated na updated a! Laging online!" Ugh, so what?!

I will feel a slight irritation, afterwards I won't do the deed.

I don't want people to describe or give a definition for something I am guilty with. I don't know about you, but for me it's kind of like "MIND YOUR OWN BUSINESS A**HOLE!".

Okay, I've said too much. Haha.

The only point here is that, I can't do what I want to do because I always think what other people might think of me. I don't want to be labeled with anything, especially with something I don't like, unpleasing, and absolutely not me. But I thought, why would I place a tape on my mouth when my voice screams out to the world. Meaning, why not be me when I want to be me.

Just ignore those commentators, haters, criticizers, and no-lifers. "Haters makes me famous", as what an overweight guest on the Tyra Show said.



Disclaimer: but I do love positive criticisms. :)

I don't know what title I am to put just to label the past 2 days.

Yesterday, Kappy's sister texted me if I am interested to be a call center agent for a non-voice account. The hell I know with call centers, but I am willing to learn. Anyway, so I asked questions, even to close friends who work for CCs, about it and most said that non-voice agents mainly focus on email queries.

So, it's a wow to me since I don't like the idea of talking, like endlessly, over the phone with a foreign accent on the other line. I just can't imagine how their jobs work and like, but like what I've said, I am willing to learn.

So when the news broke, I was like "God?!? Is this is?". Mix of happy hormones, jumping pills, excitement, and fear I felt. The power of surprise is surprising (haha). I asked the informant about details, but this specific thing pushed pause on my brain -- she doesn't know what company it is. So I wondered if I shall really go into it, is it a scam, is it a joke, is it a blah blah blah. May pagkaparanoid pa naman ako at times, and most of the time I consume my energy thinking. Lalo na if I have doubts.

So I prayed again. I asked for signs to come out ASAP. I-pressure daw ba. Signs signs signs before I sleep. I was lying on the couch waiting, and I thought, may lalapit bang sign kung nakahiga lang ako sa isang tabi. So I decided to go out, in the middle of the night. In front of our house stood a burial of a neighboor. Maghanap daw ba ng sign sa burol.

I came inside again, still, no sign. I don't know what to expect. I just need that certain 'thing'. I stared out of the sky, watched the stars flicker. Isang shooting star, isa lang. Minutes passed, wala parin.

I set my alarm 7am. 10am was the call time at Ortigas. I woke up before the alarm, and climbed downstairs. I want to make breakfast, or drink coffee, but no. I only have how many hours left and I am still undecided.

I did not go.

oOo

I did choir duty tonight. Again, it was heartfelt and blessfull. I know, right at that moment, I have received a blessing. After the final prayer for the officers, I headed to the dressing room and turned my cell phone on. Instantly, a message came. And guess what? An offer came AGAIN. For the same job, same position, same person, same same same. I was like, sh*t. Totoo ba to?! It's like this is for me, and I am spoon-fed, regretted it, and then offered again. Parang, tanga na lang ako kung hindi ko pa yun itutuloy! Ayan na Enon oh!

Like what my close friend said, "wala namang mawawala sayo kung susubukan mo".

I will try. Itaga sa bato.

Yiii, sana hindi ko kanin tong mga sinabi ko. :))

It started out as a feeling
Which then grew into a hope
Which then turned into a quiet thought
Which then turned into a quiet word

And then that word grew louder and louder
'Til it was a battle cry

I'll come back
When you call me
No need to say goodbye

Just because everything's changing
Doesn't mean it's never
Been this way before

All you can do is try to know
Who your friends are
As you head off to the war

Pick a star on the dark horizon
And follow the light

You'll come back
When it's over
No need to say good bye

You'll come back
When it's over
No need to say good bye

Now we're back to the beginning
It's just a feeling and now one knows yet
But just because they can't feel it too
Doesn't mean that you have to forget

Let your memories grow stronger and stronger
'Til they're before your eyes

You'll come back
When they call you
No need to say good bye

You'll come back
When they call you
No need to say good bye

I just had my much awaited talk, and I can't believe that all I needed was me. Me, another person, a person I am not. And it just feels like all along I've been so stupid not to realize that what I am doing and waiting are all NONSENSE.

Well, not nonsense at all. But it's just that, goes here the saying that, "everything perfect will fall into place at the right moment and at the right time." Maybe, all this time that I have been nonsensically standing, were the time that forever I will not forget.

And for me to take hold of something I have longed since childhood, it must be me, not anybody or anything who will take the first step. Maybe I can say now that you write your own destiny.

And I keep on praying to God. But then I am asking myself, "until when?". I stabbed myself with the answer to my own question, "are you taking some actions? YOU ARE NOT. Kinakain ka ng sarili mong multo." Once God saw you doing your thing, it will never be possible for Him not to help you through your path.

Just try to be the person you are not. And maybe you'll see what you need to see. :)

"More time, a little more time, alam ko na gagawin ko."

  Watched 500 Days of Summer. It was good. Fresh concept (cinematography) for a romantic movie.






   
PS: Since we love to eat at different restos and cuisines, we thought of listing them as images. Here is my first try:


So far, we have already tried Sakae Sushi, Mexicali, Wham Burger, Pizza Hut, Burgoo, Jollibee, Mcdo, Wendy's,  Tokyo Cafe, Yellow Cab, Mrs. Fields, Italianis, Cabalen, Maguro, Almon Marina, Sizzling Pepper Steak, and more to come. Di ko na maalala yung iba. Haha